what is cute? cute is young and inexperienced. cute is holding hands in the car, and kissing at the red lights. what is sexy? sexy is standing in the rain as you push me against the hood of your car, tearing at my shirt, as you kiss me with the intent to never stop. what is passion? passion is knowing what you want and stopping at nothing until you get it. what is beautiful? beautiful is all about the inside of a person. beauty can only be found in the heart. what is love? love is the amazing balance of all of these things, in your mind, body and soul.
I hope that someday I’ll be stuck in the back of your mind, and you’ll be going crazy in the middle of the night. You won’t be able to get comfortable or fall asleep because there will be a mistake you make years ago, and it’s eating away at you. And you won’t remember what that mistake was. But you’ll be thinking of me at the same time, and how much you love me. And you will never put the two together. And when you see me, you’ll be frozen in your tracks. And I’ll be able to walk through you like you do to me. And it will feel so good to be the one in charge. And when that day does come I will go home and close the door behind me and laugh uncontrollably. And I’ll shake, and I’ll cry as I laugh. And I’ll be able to lay down on the persian rug and listen to some lovely music, and let my heart slow down and die. And it will all be prefect.
lollipops turn into cigarettes. the innocent ones turn into sluts. homework goes in the trash. detention becomes suspension. mobile phones are used in class. soda becomes vodka. bikes become cars. kisses turn into sex. remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? when protection meant wearing a helmet? when the worst you could get from boys were cooties? dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth, and your mom was your hero? race issues were who ran the fastest. the only drug you knew of was cough medicine. the most pain you felt was when you scraped your knees. goodbyes were only until tomorrow. we couldn’t even wait to grow up…
